Category Archives: Targeted Individuals in San Diego, CA

Crawling Roach Escorts

Just a few random pics of the b&w SUVs that ‘mysteriously’ show up where ever I am in San Diego. Usually they  follow me and are usually manned by some constipated looking crew cut wearing white or latino male. Sometimes even female. Curiously, I’ve never seen any black rejects or shills. Maybe because black officers would notice that they are only stalking black people?  I call them crawling roaches or mall security as it’s evident that they have no authority to stop or approach TIs. In effect, they have even less power than mall security, since security guards can at least detain those they believe have committed crimes. The funny thing is this: as a TI, I’m not accused or even suspected of any criminal activity OR they would have a legit reason to follow me. Since it’s clear they don’t have a legal or legitimate reason to be following or monitoring me; they also cannot legally approach. So I call them mall security, which is being charitable. When it’s all said and done, they are using taxpayer’s gas, money and resources to illegally stalk people while I’m sure there are REAL criminals crawling the city. Or maybe not? Maybe they are the only real criminals so they know they are not missing any REAL crime going on. Except the one they are engaged in.  This is what your nazi government is doing with all of it’s illegal drug and arms sales worldwide. I expect this to increase since there is a new fuhrer in office.


Suicide Rate Surge in US: V2k?

U.S. Suicide Rate Surges to a 30-Year High

WASHINGTON — Suicide in the United States has surged to the highest levels in nearly 30 years, a federal data analysis has found, with increases in every age group except older adults. The rise was particularly steep for women. It was also substantial among middle-aged Americans, sending a signal of deep anguish from a group whose suicide rates had been stable or falling since the 1950s.

The suicide rate for middle-aged women, ages 45 to 64, jumped by 63 percent over the period of the study, while it rose by 43 percent for men in that age range, the sharpest increase for males of any age. The overall suicide rate rose by 24 percent from 1999 to 2014, according to the National Center for Health Statistics, which released the study on Friday.

The increases were so widespread that they lifted the nation’s suicide rate to 13 per 100,000 people, the highest since 1986. The rate rose by 2 percent a year starting in 2006, double the annual rise in the earlier period of the study. In all, 42,773 people died from suicide in 2014, compared with 29,199 in 1999….The link to the full article follows below:


After reading the above article, it struck me that I am a part of the demographic of black women, who is middle-aged and seem to be overwhelmingly and disproportionately complaining about being Targeted with directed energy weapons and covert government harassment. If you were to search online, especially on YT, you will find many of us speaking out about our harassment. It has always struck me as telling that we are disproportionately represented among those claiming to be TIs–black women like me and more famously, like author, Gloria Naylor and I’m sure many more who don’t yet realize they are TIs. And some of whom may never realize it. Maybe they will be among the unfortunate ones like those in the above article, whom will take their own lives. Not because they are ‘depressed’ or ‘mentally ill’ but b/c the US government and it’s proxies are covertly using them as involuntary human guinea pigs via V2k and Directed Energy Weapons. And given the history of covert US government & private medical experimentation on black people going back to slavery as documented in Harriet Washington’s book, Medical Apartheid, this is not hyperbole. Why would directed energy weapons experimentation be any different? Even the 2010 Bio-Ethics Committee Hearings (can be viewed on YT), which were a smokescreen and never intended to resolve and certainly not end, illegal & covert US government human experimentation–you see that middle-aged black women, are again, over-represented in relation to our population numbers. My targeting was revealed to me in 2010 while living in LA and I have read that most of those complaining about covert harassment and targeting are located in the state of California. I believe this to be ground zero for it. And what I have repeatedly noted in this blog about Voice To Skull is that it mimics the widespread touted DSM-V symptoms of ‘mental illness’ and schizophrenia perfectly. But I’m sure that’s precisely the objective. The perfect state crime-hidden in plain sight. Just like the former USSR’s policy of punitive psychiatry. And for those who think this statement  is far-fetched and paranoid–have we not heard of Tuskegee, Mk-ULTRA, CoIntelpro and a host of other documented, covert and ILLEGAL experiments & pogroms the US government has admittedly subjected unaware citizens to? Again, THEY admitted to and eventually declassified their documented crimes. So why would it be a stretch to believe that this continues today? What are the odds that a criminal will self-regulate and stop committing crimes that they have continually gotten away with—for centuries? Especially, governmental agencies and proxies who see themselves as above the law and acting as god with a little g. If a person upon hearing V2k is not aware that the technology exists (like the commercial version of the US military’s voice to skull—audio spotlight technology) then I can see how many could fold under the weight and initial shock. In my case,  there have been many times over the years, when I have been encouraged via the V2K to ‘kill myself’ which I sneeringly responded, ‘Why would I kill myself over this bs? Kill myself b/c of the US government’s psychosis? I don’t need to commit suicide, I need to be cloned.’ And so suicide, for me at least, was never an option. I’m clear that I’m not the problem. The freaks of nature who are conducting this covert and illegal experimentation are the ones who need to do the world a favor and commit suicide. Not me. There needs to be a billion more of me and the world would be an infinitely better place. Certainly, for most of the world’s population.  I believe that California is again, ground zero for this illegal US government experimentation and also believe ties into what the late author Dave McGowan relayed in his writings about Laurel Canyon and the US military laboratory and observatory and how it was used historically. What goes on in the dark…

May, 2016–D. Blackwell


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TIs Should Sue the US govt for Attempted Murder?

It has been studied and is known that lack of sleep or sleep deprivation and increased rates of mortality are related. Well, as any genuine TI will tell you, we are–FOR YEARS AND DECADES on end–subjected to directed energy weapon attacks, particularly at night, that deliberately disrupt sleep and lead to prolonged sleep deprivation. In addition, we are also being irradiated for years and decades by a bombardment of electromagnetic pulsed waves (which is another form of attempted murder)..all surreptitiously because the cowardly criminally insane freaks of nature working for the organized criminal network SOME call a government, think they can get away with it.

Researchers from the University of Warwick, and University College London, have found that lack of sleep can more than double the risk of death from cardiovascular disease. However they have also found that point comes when too much sleep can also more than double the risk of death.

In research to be presented to the British Sleep Society, Professor Francesco Cappuccio from the University of Warwick’s Warwick Medical School  will show the results of a study of how sleep patterns affected the mortality of 10,308  civil servants in the “Whitehall II study.” Amongst other things the data they used provided information on the mortality rates and sleep patterns on the same group of civil servants at two points in their life (1985-8 and those still alive in 1992-3).

The researchers took into account other possible factors such age, sex, marital status, employment grade, smoking status, physical activity, alcohol consumption, self-rated health, body mass index, blood pressure, cholesterol, other physical illness etc. Once they had adjusted for those factors they were able to isolate the effect that changes in sleep patterns over 5 years had on mortality rates 11-17 years later.

Taking those who had not made any change in their sleeping habits between 1985-8 and 1992-3  as their baseline (7 hours per night being the figure normally recommended as an appropriate period of sleep for an adult) they were able to see what difference having reduced the amount of sleep over time  made to mortality rates by 2004.

Those who had cut their sleeping from 7h to 5 hours or less faced a 1.7 fold increased risk in mortality from all causes, and twice the increased risk of death from a cardiovascular problem in particular.

Professor Francesco Cappuccio from the University of Warwick’s Warwick Medical School  will say to the British Sleep Society: “Fewer hours sleep and greater levels of sleep disturbance have become widespread in industrialised societies. This change, largely the result of sleep curtailment to create more time for leisure and shift-work, has meant that reports of fatigue, tiredness and excessive daytime sleepiness are more common than a few decades ago. Sleep represents the daily process of physiological restitution and recovery, and lack of sleep has far-reaching effects.”

Curiously the researchers also found that too much sleep also increased mortality. They found that those individuals who showed an increase in sleep duration to 8 hours or more a night were more than twice as likely to die as those who had not changed their habit, however, predominantly from non-cardiovascular diseases.

Professor Francesco Cappuccio says: “Short sleep has been shown to be a risk factor for weight gain, hypertension and Type 2 diabetes sometimes leading  to mortality but in contrast to the short sleep-mortality association it appears that no potential mechanisms by which long sleep could be associated with increased mortality have yet been investigated. Some candidate causes for this include depression, low socioeconomic status and cancer-related fatigue.”

“In terms of prevention, our findings indicate that consistently sleeping around 7  hours per night is optimal for health and a sustained reduction may predispose to ill-health.”

The research paper entitled: “A prospective study of change in sleep duration; associations with mortality in the Whitehall II cohort” will be published in the  Journal Sleep and the full list of the authors is: Jane E. Ferrie, Martin J. Shipley, Francesco P. Cappuccio,  Eric Brunner, Michelle A. Miller, Meena Kumari,  and Michael G. Marmot

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The above post is reprinted from materials provided by University of Warwick. Note: Materials may be edited for content and length


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The ‘New’ Compartmentalized “Jonestowns” Worldwide…

I believe wholeheartedly, though I obviously can’t prove it (right now)–that those who are TIs like myself, are being subjected to this ongoing & illegal experimentation, for years and decades on end, pretty much undetected by the communities and world at large, hiding in plain sight, so to speak, because the CIA has almost unlimited financial and political resources. If you are like most TIs, once your targeting has moved into this ‘final’ phase; 9 times out of 10, you are financially ruined or destitute, isolated socially from both your loved ones and any friends you may have had and so then, it becomes much easier for them to ‘experiment’ on you without much ado. At least, that’s the way it’s planned. But we all know what they say about the ‘best laid plans’?

First off, let me say, I don’t believe the stalking, audio harassment and 24 hr monitoring and surveillance is anything ‘new’ for TIs. I just think that once our targeting has reached this ‘stage’ of the game; they simply ramp up what has probably been life long experimentation. I believe, at least in my case (as I believe is the case for MOST TIs)–that i have been a human guinea pig from at least my early childhood but more than likely–from birth. I mentioned on another post that my original birth certificate curiously lists me and my parent’s race as ‘white’ (there is an addendum that corrects this and I didn’t know any of this until adulthood when I obtained my birth certificate for work-related matters).  I say this is ‘curious’ since we are in no way ‘white-looking or appearing’–in other words, we are not black people of the Adam Clayton Powell or Lena Horne assortment–much more like Paul Robeson or James Baldwin–so there is no way anyone with clear eyesight could have made that mistake.

It is my belief since my targeting and covert experimentation has been revealed to me–that this may have been a way to ‘flag’ me or us in the system. And perhaps a way to skew the racial stats that most assuredly have to exist somewhere for what I believe is more than likely generations-old covert and illegal experimentation by the US government being perpetrated on the black community.  In hindsight, there was a lot of ‘trauma’, both psychological & physical that happened to me as a child & adolescent that I think set the stage for where I am today. I think this is more than likely the case for all legitimate TIs. I think why someone like me is selected for audio harassment like voice to ear; is probably because I have been selected for a form of behavior-modification that the Frank Church Committee Hearings documents revealed to be a major component of the CIA’s MK-ULTRA mind control program.

I wholeheartedly believe that what I’m being subjected to is basically the US government covertly creating behaviors that are either seen as asocial or negatively affecting ‘test subjects’ like me (OCD, hoarding, bi-polarism–these are just examples–I’m not saying I suffer from any of–these behaviors and our responses are negatively reinforced through out our youth and young adulthood and surreptitiously monitored via proxies/contractors (we saw this with Tuskegee)–and later in these unaware test subjects’ lives they implement a phase of ‘attempted modification’ that in effect, seeks to reverse these artificially-created (by them) behaviors thru methodologies we now call organized gang stalking, covert targeting/stalking, psychic driving which  is a method used by the infamous Dr. Donald Ewan Cameron while working for the CIA at Canada’s McGill University; psychotropic drugs or electro-shock therapy and voice to skull (V2k), etc.  I am sure this is what nazi ‘scientists’ operating in places like Auschwitz & Dachau were possibly studying during WWII and if not; Operation Paperclip has made their perverse wet dreams possible.

I see this ‘system’ as antithetical to mental health and humanity in general. So it should be little surprise that my heroes are what most in society would see as ‘extremists’ or left of center ideologists. But make no mistake about it—my political views are not the REASON or CAUSE of the illegal and covert targeting and human experiments the US government and it’s proxies are engaged in—this is what they would like people who are reading this to believe. That somehow something I said or did caused this. My belief is that my entire family has probably, in various capacities and degrees—been used as involuntary and unaware human guinea pigs for generations. In the same way that Africans held no blame in their kidnapping and eventual enslavement in this country—I and my family hold no responsibility for what these racist, eugenicist nazi psychos posing as legitimate government entities, have chosen to implement and use—like slavery—purely for profit.

In my case, after having gone through other TIs personal journeys and testimonies and thinking about my own experience; I believe that the apartment where Voice to Ear was introduced to me–2821 West Blvd, #103, LA 90016–is what I think they call a CIA ‘safe house’..what appears to be an ordinary residence or place of business in the community that is owned by a possible CIA business front or a proxy and is used as a covert CIA black ops site. I believe that TIs like me, who don’t have the luxury of owning our own homes–are shuffled or guided as it were to CIA owned properties (and think about how much illegal and undocumented money the world’s largest illegal drug & arms dealer would have at it’s disposal?)..where I believe that whatever technology is being utilized to cause the neurological disturbances, which include the noise harassment, like stomping & bamming that only I ‘hear’; that cause the accelerated heart racing that happens primarily at night; the sensation of being virtually sexually assaulted or molested, again, something that happens only at night; the extreme body heat generated that I believe is caused by directed energy weapons; I also feel the sensation of my spine being manipulated or something moving up and down it, along with the feeling of my body vibrating or shaking. All of above generally only happen at night. There is also the manipulation of dreams or the attempts at blocking out dreams.

There is also the attempts to suppress or heighten sexual desire or thoughts, I guess depending on what type of sexual pervert is doing the ‘experiment’ on that particular day. Of course, I have no way of knowing whether directed energy weapons or what ever technology is being used to facilitate all of these neurological and bodily disturbances is mobile and needs to be in close proximity to the target or whether this is being done from a large distance. I do know that in LA when I was first introduced to this, I remember getting violently sick, vomiting and also having an excruciating headache–so this could have been a result of something I ingested or perhaps it was them ‘turning’ this technology on for the first time and this was my body’s reaction to it. I also recall that this occurred after being laid off from DoD Defense Contractor Raytheon in 2009. I wouldn’t find out til recently that Raytheon & Boeing, the other defense contractor that I worked security for; both create the type of US military technology that TIs like me are being targeted with. Co-incidence? Doubtful. I was actually laid off from this job b/c ostensibly (after a year) my credit was too poor to continue working for them. It didn’t hit me til recently..that the company that hired me–Pinkerton, couldn’t have been that incompetent to take a whole year to find out this info. In this day and age of computerized everything, credit reports and pretty much anything else can be accessed almost immediately–but it took Pinkerton a year to find this out? I’m wondering if working at these DoD contractors is how my implants were somehow activated? As I mentioned above–I did get incredibly sick after getting laid off and this is when the V2k kicked in…Interesting. But I do realize that what is going on now, is primarily on auto-pilot and definitely not ‘live’. I remember early on when I moved back to San Diego in 2011, the Voice to Ear, mistakenly referred to me as Joanne. Apparently, the US government has so many TIs on their rolls, they can’t keep our names straight in the computers. Dumb asses.  It’s absolutely possible that in LA, it was ‘live’, at least partially. As i said previously, there are a lot of unemployed actors/actresses in LA and I’m sure if given the opportunity to work, even if they were not told what their ‘scripts’ were really being used for; would jump at something like this. But the psy ops was very specific to what they had deemed were my own personal insecurities. As I’ve said many times, what worked on me would not work on someone else. This is NOT a one size fits all harassment. And that’s why I KNOW this is US intel/military-based harassment.

I also wholeheartedly believe there should be a class-action lawsuit against the US government for continually surreptitiously holding black people in virtual and literal involuntary servitude via this multi-generational targeting of whole families. I emphatically believe that families like mine are being used, without our consent and knowledge, as involuntary human guinea pigs in various medical and military experiments–funded and conducted on behalf of the US ‘government’.  TIs, like me, I believe, are placed on secret ‘lists’ where we are actually sold to different entities— both private and governmental, for the purpose of testing medications, medical and psychiatric drugs and procedures; military technologies and covert military experimentation, etc. The US government is then actively making money and profit from the sale of unsuspecting human guinea pigs, most probably by charging ‘user fees’ for access to what are supposed to be ‘citizens’ to private businesses (domestic and foreign), public universities, hospitals, medical facilities, research laboratories, corporations and the US military; as well as foreign militaries and governments. All of this goes on for generations, in much the same way that chattel slavery existed in the US for centuries.

And this is why I believe if there was a TI list made publicly available, we would find that the overwhelming majority of those subjected to this most insidious crime against humanity, hiding in plain sight–I would bet MY LIFE, that most of us are black. Most TIs are unaware of the true circumstances of their lives and go through life thinking their continual ‘bad luck’ is based on poor choices and circumstances they are in control of. Most are oblivious (as well as the general public) that the US government is covertly conducting ongoing and life long ‘mind control’ and behavioral modification experimentation on people from birth–for generations. I also believe, based on my daily subjection to local SD cop & California border control cars patrolling my every move about the city of San Diego, in the same way that I’m sure runaway slaves were hunted in the antebellum south–it is obvious, that the US government, is just as amoral, depraved and bereft of conscience, as they have shown themselves to be for the entirety of the existence of what we know as the USA. I also expect them to surreptitiously either track me (via my implants) and probably with boots (with paid foreign proxies like they do here with local SD cops–more than likely from the precinct located in City Heights on Fairmont Ave.) on the ground when I do leave this country. As I am aware, that as of Jan 2018, US Passport changes are in store, I wouldn’t be surprised if these freaks of nature are so paranoid, that they would try to keep people like me from traveling outside of this prison some call a country. Of course, it will all be covert, just like the daily V2k and directed energy weapon assaults I’m bombarded with. Which begs the question: why are these barbaric beasts so cowardly if they think they are so omnipotent? Why the public dance? Why not just come out and tell the world how barbaric you truly are? (not that you have ever hid it well).

Devonah Blackwell


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Gloria Naylor: TI

I have included this entry about author Gloria Naylor because as far as I know, she is the only well-known or ‘famous’ Targeted Individual who has shared their story with the public. And although I have never personally spoken to this fellow black woman–her story of U.S. government covert harassment resonates. It is also my story. And probably the story of the other untold numbers of black women whom I believe are being disproportionately targeted with this technology. Curiously, 1996 is the year Ms. Naylor mentions as the beginning of her targeting. It is also the year I moved cross-country from Michigan to California.


Gloria Naylor is considered one of the leading African American writers of our time. She has written for theatre, film, and television, and is the author of six novels, including “The Women of Brewster Place” which won the national book award in 1983. Her books have been translated into twelve languages and are taught at college campuses throughout the world.

But in her book, “1996″, she details the horrors of the year in which she first became a target of government surveillance, psychological warfare and ultimately electronic mind control.


Listen to Ms. Naylor’s 2010 audio interview discussing her experience as a US government Targeted Individual, with Greg Szymanski of the Arctic Beacon Journal here:

The below is a letter written & signed by Gloria Naylor in what appears to be an official plea for help from the then NY State Attorney General. As a TI, I undoubtedly can guess what resulted from her sincere plea: the same thing that has been the result for the vast majority of TIs–nada.

A letter to Attorney General

January 9, 2007
Attorney General
Organized Crime Task Force
Attn: John Dormin
Albany, NY 12224

Dear Attorney General:

I am a native New Yorker and have resided in the state for my entire life. I graduated from Brooklyn College in 1981 and went on to earn my Masters degree at Yale University. I have had a long and successful career in the arts. My work in the theater has earned me honorary grants from New York State; but it is primarily in the field of literature that I’ve made my mark. My various novels have received many awards, among them a Guggenheim Fellowship, and my first novel, The Women Of Brewster Place, won the National Book Award in 1983 and was made into a television miniseries by Oprah Winfrey. I have tried to live a peaceful and law abiding life; tried to give back to my community and to the world through teaching at various universities and through touring for the United States Information Agency in Africa and India. So I am in a quandary as to why in 1996 I first became a target for constant surveillance, organized harassment, and ultimately assault by electronic weaponry.

The surveillance began in Beaufort, South Carolina, where I was researching a novel and continued when I returned to my home in New York. Six months into this experience I began to “hear voices.” Among the many messages were exhortations to kill myself. And I did what I would suggest anyone do under such circumstances: I sought medical help. After almost ten years, three psychiatrists, and prescriptions of haldol, a chemical reason for this condition was ruled out by professionals. That is because the reason was technological. But that was beyond their pervue. I do not believe it is beyond yours; because my circumstances make me the target of an organized and concerted operation to deny me my civil and human rights.

Over the years I have calmly and systematically tried to bring various elements of my plight to the authorities I felt would be concerned with it: The surveillance and wiretapping to the attention of the local police, civil rights attorneys, human rights organizations, and the progressive press. The technological abuse I brought to no one because, while there is knowledge of its existence, and knowledge of decades of experimental abuse of emerging technology on unwilling citizens, there is nothing concretely documented about this current wave, I am in the midst of history in the making; and like COINTELPRO and MKULTRA and the radiation experiments from the 1950′s to the 1980′s, I stand as one among many who have had their lives and their sanity disrupted and often destroyed. But I also stand as a resident of New York State; and I am bringing to your office a declaration of these human rights abuses on one of your residents.

Gloria Naylor


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Ha..they thought they could erase my testimony..NOT…

Let me start off by introducing myself..I am a woman. I am Black. I am a so-called military veteran of the US Army. I am middle aged. I am intelligent. I am an artist. I am passionate about justice and my people. I am flawed. I am perfectly imperfect and I am a Targeted Individual. Not because of the any of the aforementioned because I believe my targeting doesn’t just include me; but my immediate family–perhaps for generations back. How far back this goes I don’t know but I am sure that the covert, illegal targeting of people like me, is in effect, another form of the Tuskegee Experiment, CoINTELPRO, MK-ULTRA, and The Jonestown, Guyana Experiment (what is now being confirmed as a failed CIA mind control experiment)..all rolled into one. This blog was originally started by me in 2010, while living in L.A., when my targeting was ramped up with 24 hour auditory harassment (widely referred to as Voice to Skull or V2k) was started as a virtual diary to try to sort out what was happening. It was cathartic and cleansing at the time and allowed me to release all of the pent up anger and frustration I was feeling at the time. The original blog: was recently wasn’t updated regularly by me and I hadn’t checked on it in at least a year but I didn’t delete it. I don’t know if it was the federal criminal network that some call the US government or their proxies; but the only remains of the blog are to be found on web archives like, which is where I was able to copy & salvage bits of the original blog. That’s the bad news. The good news is that this allows me to take bits of that original blog and create something new in it’s place. I have been aware of being a TI for over 5 years now and I hope that my testimony can help others who may be newly ‘initiated’ to what I consider the greatest on going crime against humanity being perpetrated by elements of the US government; hiding in plain sight. Below is my testimony, my truth..100% in my own words. It may not be a pretty read or always p.c…but it is MINE. I make NO apologies for anything I’ve written or expressed herein. I’ve earned the right to my opinions, my truth and my anger. Those reading this don’t have to agree, understand or co-sign. And after having echoed the same truths to many many people, whether verbally or via email (I have emailed politicians, lawyers, journalists, the Int’l Court of Justice, various embassies and government heads, so-called celebs, etc..pretty much anyone I thought should be made aware of this story, my story..and pretty much to a person (save for the attorney of former Gitmo prisoner & German national, Murat Kurnaz–he actually sent a cryptic response: ‘I can’t help you.’)..but beyond that, I have heard crickets. Some may say it’s because the story I relay is so bizarre and beyond the pale, that most reading it— would automatically think it either fiction or that I’m crazy. Unfortunately, for the world– neither is the case. What I AM is a canary in the mine. One of possibly thousands; if not millions. The crimes of state the US government and it’s proxies are perpetrating  against Targeted Individuals like me, today and perhaps going back for generations, is ultimately what I believe they PLAN to eventually implement en masse. That is, of course, if they haven’t already chipped and activated pretty much everyone.  If this is your first exposure to a discussion about this covert US government-sponsored crime against humanity, or what I call, the ’21st Century Tuskegee/Auschwitz’ hiding in plain sight–after reading my account, you will no longer be able to say you haven’t been warned.  Devonah Blackwell, 2015

The Below was originally written in 2010

Ok, let me get this out the way, the basic premise of the website is to allow me to vent about an incredibly odd and admittedly, hard to believe, occurrence happening in my life right now–something I just discovered a name for–organized stalking. Before I get into the definition of that, i want to give you a little background about what led to this “stalking”, who some of the players are (to my knowledge) and what I believe precipitated these daily occurrences, as well, as why I believe I’m being targeted.

Well, let’s start at the beginning, shall we? Well, in October of 2008 (after about a 2 yr spate of seemingly not-so-great-luck), I found an apt in south l.a., moved in, and life was pretty much the norm. Nothing out of the ordinary about my neighbors, my neighborhood or my life in terms of routine.

All that changed about a year later when I became laid off and found myself at home more. In the beginning, what I noticed sporadically, was what i thought was somebody in the apt above me following me from room-to-room. Of course, most people when they think they hear something like this, they automatically think, “nah, I must be mistaken.” Because who would expend energy following someone else from room-to-room?

I mean, that’s what any reasonable person would think, right? I’ve heard of stalking someone from location to location, but um, from room-to-room, inside an apt? Too strange for words. Well, of course, turns out, i wasn’t mistaken. It kept happening with more frequency until I noticed not only was i being basically stalked from room-to-room, this “person” was also following into the bathroom above me as I showered. How do I know this? I would hear them bumping up against the wall above me as I went about my showering routine. Quite bizarre, isn’t it? Just my damn luck too. Most people have the luxury of having stalkers who follow them from home to work and maybe to the grocery store; I get a damn stalker who’s a shut-in.Ain’t no way to get away from them. 

Your home is supposed to be your castle. Well mine was about to become a prison. Real quick. Ok, so back to the story. So after hearing and noticing this in-apt stalking for probably a month or so, I started inquiring to the landlord as to whether the person upstairs was perhaps “mentally ill”? She I believe said as far as she knew, that wasn’t the case and that there was one lone woman who lived upstairs. Well, ok, I’m thinking, whomever it is, she must have a lot of time on her hands and can’t be mentally stable to spend the energy and time it takes to follow me from room-to-room.

After contacting the landlord and seeing no change in frequency of the stalking, I then tried another tact. I decided to write a note for the woman and put it by her door. Basically, I may as well admit that I can be a tactless heffa. lol..there’s no way around it. no denying it. I can be. By this time, I was kind of pissed, I’ll admit, so the wording of the note may have not been the most delicate. But my thinking was that she and I “knew” what was going on, so why beat around the bush and pretend otherwise? I wanted the behavior to end, and I wasn’t gonna mince words. Hey, what can I say?

Now having said all of that, I still had expectations at this time that I was dealing with a reasonably sane person, so I felt like the note should alert this person that I knew what “they” were doing and that should have resolved the situation. In my mind, that’s what should have happened. Au contraire. That’s not the way it went down. lol. silly me. I heard the moment the person upstairs read the note, there was all kinds of yelling and stomping in their hallway and it sounded like a conversation between 2 people being had and it sounded to me like they were laughing about the note and it’s contents. Well, suffice it to say. Resolution was not at hand.

Escalation of noise and stalking is what resulted. This was in December of 09. Well, of course, I immediately contacted the landlord and started complaining about the noise and asking questions. She seemed to be genuinely interested and upset about what I was describing. But I was to discover later that concern was anything but genuine. Anyhoo, on to the story: some more background. The building that I live in is probably almost a century old and hence it’s really quite easy to hear conversations in the apt above me. I’ve heard her conversations (especially in my bedroom) and I’m assuming she’s heard mine.

I started noticing bamming on walls in the bedroom and stomping on the floor above me. Ofttimes I would spend my time in the bedroom on my computer and would intermittently hear stomping above my head. This continued on the daily; along with my complaints to the landlord and even my approaching the woman whom I believed to live above me. I asked her a couple of times if she lived alone or if she was the 1 making the bamming/stomping noises and each time she would reply that she lived alone. One incident included me making remarks about calling the police if the noise continued and her retort was that she would call the police on me for “threatening her”.

And added that she had informed the landlord of my purported threat. Now this chick on the surface “looked normal” but it was about to become obvious to me how so untrue that was. I had never threatened her. What I did immediately after that statement was made was to come in and call the landlord and pointedly ask her if the woman upstairs (who i will from here on out refer to as satan II, government name: LaSandra Rose), had told her I threatened her. The landlord said “no, she never mentioned anything like that to me.” I began to more than suspect there were mental issues at hand here. That basically solidified that feeling. But no matter. The noise and stalking continued unabated.

One day though, I realized after having the landlord inform me that Satan II was supposedly enrolled in school and what days she should be attending; i noticed as soon as she left, there seemed to be footsteps of someone coming into the bedroom to sit. It was like clockwork. That’s when I pretty much guessed that Satan II had company and maybe this is who was doing the stomping & stalking. Didn’t matter to me who was doing it, I just wanted it to stop. Immediately. lol..of course, people in hell want ice water too. Don’t think that’ll be forthcoming anytime soon either.

Anyhoo, so the noise continued, even to the point that I would try to “hide” in my hallway to see what would happen if the perp couldn’t hear me walking from room-to-room. Well, imagine my horror at the reaction I got: pacing back and forth, ostensibly to “find me”; bamming on walls, incredibly loud stomping, sometimes these tirades or temper tantrums would last for 20 or 30 minutes at a time. How others in my bldg couldn’t hear this or weren’t aware of this, I couldn’t understand. There was only ONCE that i remember where someone in another apt actually came and knocked on Satan II’s door after one of the tirades. It was about 1230 in the morning, so I’m assuming maybe they were awakened but of course, satan didn’t answer the door, but that did stop that particular tirade. So to make this story a little quicker, about 3 or 4 months into this ridiculous situation (with the landlord appearing to be interested, even offering to come sit at my apt to see if she could “hear the noise”–of course, she never did)

I decided to go over the landlord’s head since she appeared in my opinion, to being playing both sides to the middle. I ended up having no faith in her sincerity to fix the situation after hearing satan II repeat something that I told the landlord via email. There is no way this woman would have overheard me saying this; the only plausible explanation could be is that the landlord was going back telling her everything I was saying to her. So in my opinion, i was never going to get results dealing with the landlord. Since at this time, it was pretty evident to me that the woman didn’t live alone, I decided to go to my local housing authority and complain. Now some may say that was an extreme move, but after 4 or 5 months of trying to personally go the source of the problem; going to my landlord and seemingly getting nothing but the run-around in my opinion, I felt that this was a last resort but perhaps a way to get something done.

I definitely wasn’t able to enjoy living in this environment and since i was paying rent, i felt it patently unfair that I should have to live with this day-in and day-out—anyhoo, to make a long story short (again you probably can tell by now this is so not true-ahem), what ended up transpiring is that I decided that the landlord was not operating in good faith and I basically stopped communicating with her via email. This is when it turns bizarre. Ok, remember when i said that the bldg is old and you can pretty much hear conversations between my apt and the apt above me? Well, one day i was in the living room (which i rarely sat in) and I heard conversation above me between satan II and someone else that basically indicated that 1) satan II was in possession of a tape of me that was of a sexual nature that obviously was filmed/videoed without my consent in my bedroom and 2)

According to her, i had been watched by her for at least 6 months via hidden cameras that were located in my apt; cameras that were installed and authorized by the landlord! Well, suffice it to say, I was pissed as hell! I called the landlord to tell her what I had heard and her reply was a curt, “I don’t know anything about that.” Now you probably are thinking could this woman have made these statements as some sort of cruel, sick joke?! Yeah, could have been. But the ensuing activity after that let me know it wasn’t. All of the sudden the landlord (whose voice I obviously recognized) appeared upstairs trying to I guess get satan II to give her the incriminating “evidence.” Eventually, satan II relented and in what seems like almost a blur now–I went from basically a boring humdrum life to being a watched prisoner inside of my apt. More details on that next blog entry.

Part Deux–Must Be Something in the Water in LA
Ok, so last post I was giving a rundown of what brought me to where I am today–a target of daily 24/7 day a week surveillance in my apartment in south l.a. So let’s see, where I’d leave off? Oh, ok. Yeah, when it really turned bizarre. So um at this point, I had just discovered that my landlord had installed/authorized hidden cameras inside not only my apartment but according to satan II upstairs, the whole bldg was awash in cameras. Maybe this was truth. Maybe dis-information. But what I did know for sure was that soon after this declaration from satan II was made, I could hear my landlord’s voice coming from upstairs on the daily and I also started noticing that I hear comments made (from various unknown and some recognizable voices) about what was going on inside my apartment.

Unbelievable you say? Well, I can understand that. Most people, me included before this all happened, would be loathe to believe something like this. But how I knew it was real and I wasn’t just imagining it or being super paranoid is that the comments included accurate statements about: what I was eating, what i was doing in the kitchen, the contents inside my fridge, what I ate, what I cooked, what I watched on tv (mind you, i had gotten into the habit of watching my tv in the living room w/closed captioning since all this non-sense began, so it’s not like the perps upstairs could HEAR what was on my tv; they had to be watching me remotely)–so the logical conclusion I came to was that the landlord was viewing me with remote equipment from satan II’s apt I’m guessing to see if I would find and/or look for the hidden cameras that had been mentioned.
This is where shit gets funky. Not only do i start hearing what seemed like groups of people inside satan’s apt 24/7 shouting insults about me, making threats of violence, even death threats; I also now hear groups of people (both men and women) follow me into the bathroom making comments about the personal of activities up to and including my body parts and movements inside my shower. I am then forced to take showers at night. Now, maybe I should stop right here cuz I know most people would ask, “Well, why wouldn’t you get the fuck up outta there if all of this is going on?!!!”…well, there’s no simple answer for that. Not from me anyway. I’m a complex person. I’m also stubborn as hell. And I have an aversion to what I feel is injustice. Obviously, in my eyes, this was a clear-cut case of injustice and abuse of authority.

My thinking was how dare this woman (my landlord) think that she could not only video/film me without my consent with hidden cameras and then have the nerve to think she could scare me out of a place where I had basically paid this fool monthly to SPY on me!! The audacity!! I was enraged and I felt like I had to bring this woman to justice. Not just for me, but for anyone in the future who might have moved into the apt. The easy thing at that time would have been to move. In retrospect, that probably would have been the reasonable thing to do. But not having ever experienced this type of situation and not having ANY clue as to what type of psychopath i was dealing with; I felt that I could prevail. lol..i was naive.

Now, don’t get me wrong. As of this writing, I’m still in the throes of this, but I still believe in justice and I believe in karma. The parameters of both have greatly been reduced in the former case and expanded in the latter, but I know they both exist. I don’t ever believe I’ll wait on man’s justice but The Creator’s justice is omniscient,so I know it’s forthcoming. I have unshakable faith in that. But back to the story. So this is why I didn’t move. I wanted to be the last person this happened to. Simple huh? Well, hold up. Cuz it hasn’t worked out that way.

Not yet anyway. Ok, so after being forced to take showers at night b/c the landlord (who isn’t shy about going outside and yelling at night to invite people to come into satan’s apartment and “view me” in the shower)..oh yeah, let me backtrack, I’m sure you’re wondering since all of this crazy, bizarre behavior is ostensibly going on if I alerted the police or any other law enforcement? Well, duh! Of course, I did. And that’s when I found out intimately how limited man’s justice can be. the LAPD. Um, let me put it this way– after basically reading about the many infamous and notoriously illegal and structural abuses that they’ve been accused of over the years, I really didn’t have much faith in their abilities anyway, so let’s just say, they didn’t disappoint. In all fairness, I guess my crazy ass story (no matter how true) didn’t make it any easier. I basically was told that they were not in the hidden camera-sweeping biz & without definitive proof of the alleged cameras, their hands were tied and they couldn’t do anything. Okay.

Well, at least the officer I spoke to suggested I hire a private company to do it and once the cameras were discovered then they would be able to do something. So off I went. Calling/emailing 1st home security companies and then local private investigators. What I found out is that private investigation is the dominion of the wealthy. Or at least those who have more than a pot to piss in and a window to throw it out of. Which is what category I fall in. So suffice it to say, that was not an option.

Ok, so now, this is like the 1st full week of harassment and I started emailing any and every agency/entity I thought could or would help me: law enforcement (including fbi b/c by this time it was clear that the landlord was hacking into my computer as well as my email accounts), local news media, congressional reps, shit, the local dog catcher probably got an email from me around this time I was so desperate for somebody, anybody to listen to my situation. No success with that. Either they thought I was nuts probably or maybe felt that it was an unsubstantiated claim on my part and perhaps were worried about liability. So while all this was happening, I’m trying to go about life as normally as possible (and really how normal is that going to be?).

I’m aware of the constant surveillance from above me, increased activity in satan II’s apt. What was once an atmosphere of a morgue with it’s dead-air silence, soon turned into the opposite–so much traffic going in and out of satan’s apt it reminded me of ny’s grand central station. There appeared to be a party atmosphere to it. Constant chattering, laughing–of course in between the shouts dissecting every minute detail of my daily existence. Ok, I guess I should also address why I didn’t move out IMMEDIATELY at this point? Well, long story short–I detail this in another post, but having become homeless in LA, I ended up receiving a housing voucher via VA & then P.A.T.H., so I couldn’t just jump up and move. There are rules and regulations, hoops to jump thru and frankly at this time I was still in the “i’ma bring this bitch to justice” mode. I’m just being honest.

So anyway, life as I knew it was about to leave just run-of-the-mill freaky into the Ripley’s Believe It or Not realm. One day as i was lying on my couch (as I had stopped sleeping in my bedroom by this time and had taken to sleeping in the living room), i noticed that i could hear people upstairs repeating what I was thinking to myself—um, yup, let me repeat that–I could CLEARLY hear people upstairs (who it appeared to be going between satan II’s apt and the apt diagonally across from it) repeating what I WAS THINKING–not saying out loud. But what I was thinking to myself. Now, at first I was like WTF!?? I mean, that would be a normal reaction right? But after hearing the accurate repeat of my thoughts for about 30 minutes I knew, instinctively i guess, that somehow, some way, there apparently had to be a device that was reading my thoughts. It really was just a simple acceptance. Why? Probably b/c of my fascination with true crime. And maybe my feeling that the sci-fi movies that we see had to have their genesis in reality. I just believe that. I really do.

So for me, and I’m sure I’m in the minority, believing that there is right now in 2010, a device that can read minds–based on my experiences in the past month or so–yes, I’m absolutely convinced of it. Now before this all happened, I probably would have said that the technology was decades away. But after having perused the net as of late, I have come across lots of indicators that would say this technology has probably been around for at least 30 years or more. And of course, the powers that be are not going to let the general public know about it. Can you imagine the panic? Not only is Big Brother alive and well but that muthafucka can read your thoughts. What’s sacred after that? Ok, let me make something clear. I cannot say for sure who/what entity or gov’t agency (if any) is targeting me. What I do know for sure is that my landlord, who from now on I will refer to as SATAN I, is responsible for the direct,daily harassment & surveillance that has been happening for almost 2 months now.

Whether she is a lone sociopath (cuz i looked up the characteristics and based on what I hear her say on the daily–this bish is a classic textbook case) or she’s operating under the auspices of the gubment, I dunno. And really don’t care. But how many lone sociopaths (and I’m sure there are a lot of them) happen across the means or access to a thought reading device? I mean, it’s not like you can get something like that at the local wal-mart. Altho God knows you probably can buy anything else. But again, in the past couple of weeks I have heard her say that she bought it on the black market. Again, do I know if that’s true or just more dis-information? No. I’m just reporting what’s been said.

She has indicated many times in the past couple of weeks that no matter where i go I will be under surveillance. Don’t know if it’s true and at this point definitely don’t believe her as she and the psycho crew seem to be full of dis-information and lies. It’s orchestrated and it’s organized (i’m assuming to keep me confused and off kilter, isn’t that something out of the art of war?) which would lead me to believe it is gov’t sponsored. I’ve also heard her say her father was a former CIA agent and that’s where she learned the ‘tricks of the trade’; but again, this all unsubstantiated and I don’t know if it’s just more dis-information.

But again, since trying to find out about what’s been happening to me and looking for possible validation that I’m not the only one it’s happening to, I just recently came across the term “organized or gang stalking”, which is basically defined as:
a systemic form of control, which seeks to destroy every aspect of a Targeted Individuals life. Once a target is flagged a notification is sent out to the community at large, and the target is followed around 24/7 by the various communities that they are in.
The community notifications will go out to various places. Apartment rentals, future employers, stores and communities where the target visits, will be notified. Doctors offices, fire departments, police, etc. A covert investigation might also be opened, and electronic, means used by the civilian spies/snitches as part of the overt and covert monitoring and surveillance process.
Individuals can be flagged designating them as having a history of aggressive or inappropriate behavior. This notification system will follow the target if they move, change jobs, visit other areas. It let’s the community believe that the target is a person who needs to be watched or monitored.

Ok, so now since I’ve described what has been happening TO ME on the daily since around October 22nd, 2010. Now let me get into how this has affected my familial and friendship ties. You probably already know that pretty much both groups think I’m absolutely ape-shit crazy right about now. My mom has basically gone into silent treatment mode. I don’t blame her. I think she feels 1) When this all starting getting really crazy and i described it to her, she told me repeatedly to move. Of course, like any good daughter, I didn’t listen. So now I believe she’s angry at me for that. I also believe she feels that a) I’ve gone bonkers and she can’t do anything for me or b) What i’m describing is actually happening and she can’t do anything for me. Either way, I understand and am not angry.

Which brings me to why I believe I’ve come to be such a easy target: in a nutshell, I moved to Hell-a without family. I am basically by myself which I notice seems to be a re-occurring theme with a lot of people who claim to be targets of gang stalking. Ok, now to my friends. lol..this is actually more difficult to stomach than my family’s reaction. My friends are really more like family than my family in a lot of ways. As we all know, you don’t choose your biological relatives so the ties that bind friendships for me, in a lot of ways are more stable and more durable than any that connect me to some of my blood relatives.

My friends have staged an intervention for me and seem to be really concerned for my personal safety. Which is another interesting aspect of this saga. I had a fleeting moment of fear in the beginning of this situation but since then i really don’t fear for my immediate safety. Why you ask? Because what I have discovered is that most of the perps appear to be cowardly. Altho most of the bldg appears at the VERY least to be aware of what’s going on if not directly involved in the daily surveillance, when I see them in the hall or either coming or going in and out of the bldg, they appear sweet as pie and try to actually act as if nothing is going on out of the ordinary. Which is a clear indication of psychosis as far as I’m concerned.

Satan I is a classic cowardly bully as well as the aforementioned–a textbook sociopath. I’m guessing her chronological age to be in the mid-50’s, maybe early 60’s. Emotionally tho-that bish is about 9 or 10. And I’m actually being charitable. It’s obvious from the maniacal laugh and the giggles that escape from what I believe to be her crustacean lips–that she derives supreme joy from tormenting others. Classic Bully. I’m assuming she feels powerful by thinking she’s taking power from others and controlling their every waking moment. This is what I imagine. Do i know whether it’s true? No. But anyone who spends every day of their lives for a month and a half, obsessing over, consumed by the most minute, insignificant details of someone elses’ life—that’s not power. That’s psychosis.

I’ve often wondered after hearing her recite what i’ve “thought”, what I’ve said (via my emails) or what I’ve said outright–it’s amazing to me how she can be delusional enough to think she has control over my life by the constant surveillance–what per chance does she call the hold I obviously have over her “life”? You can’t be involved in or orchestrate the surveillance of someone (especially not 24 hrs a day) and do that without constraining or limiting your own movements. Have I gotten caught up in her web or is it really the other way around? She could walk away anytime. What could be sooo fascinating about me or my life that it would make someone who appears for all intents and purposes to have a thriving, successful life and business? Again, whether she’s acting on her own behalf or just another peon in the gov’ts cog, I dunno. But you have to wonder, what would make someone so depraved and have so much disdain and dis-regard for others. Scratch that. lol. She’s a sociopath. So I KNOW why she does what she does. I guess I’m wondering why she’s made it to her age and someone hasn’t murked her ass? Seriously. From what she’s indicated, I’m not the 1st. she’s done this to others. Maybe serendipity will happen and one of them will see this blog. Maybe not.
D. Blackwell–Oct 11, 2015, San Diego, CA.

(I’m publishing this with my real last name so that all info can be substantiated by those who care to look into dates & places)–I wrote the below addendum, after discovering that my online blog (the above is excerpted from that ‘erased’ blog), has been ‘deleted or erased’..don’t know when but I know i certainly didn’t delete now I have to go to google (probably run by the same criminals as those that are targeting me)..and plead with them to restore it, if that’s even possible at this point but I’m going to try at the very least. If it can’t be restored (it was not), then I’ll just start another one but my story will be online as my testimony:

It’s funny, I read the above, almost 5 years later and it’s amazing what I believed at the time was true & what I’ve learned in the ensuing years. First of all, Janet Lauritsen Beumer, my former landlord at 2821 West Blvd #103, Los Angeles, CA..probably does work as a contractor or directly for one of the misnomered ‘intelligence’ agencies (FBI, CIA, DoD)..though I think it’s more likely the former. In my mind, if she was higher up on the food chain, it’s not likely she’d be openly exposed. So more than likely she’s a low-level shill.

Her husband & son, both who both live high profile lives in the LA community, one in the medical establishment , Dr. John Beumer, and her son, as a hollywood producer, Derek Beumer–are also probably both fronts as well. Of course, all of this is supposition but what is not is Janet Beumer’s clear involvement in my initial harassment. There is NO way she didn’t know what was going on. I hope that bitch gets hers in spades. And soon.

The other ‘residents’ I mentioned who lived at the West Blvd address (LaSandra Rose in particular, as she lived directly above me in apt 203)..I believe were more bit players and more than likely were paid to record their voices that I heard non-stop & daily in the initial stages of my targeting (interestingly enough, all of the voices that I heard initially, like those of Janet Beumer & LaSandra Rose, have in the ensuing years morphed into what sounds like MY VOICE ONLY. So instead of words & phrases sounding though they are coming from an outside person or source; they now sound like my voice saying these things, as if it’s my own conscience). What I had no way of knowing when I wrote the above is that ALL that I heard (the 24 hour non-stop chatter and conversation) was pre-recorded and not happening ‘live’. None of it. In retrospect, I believe that I have been implanted with God & the bottom feeders only know what–and that this is what is picking up what is widely referred to as Voice to Skull (v2k)–another misnomer. I have found in the 5+ years of being aware of V2k, that it does NOT, as is widely claimed online as fact—bypass ears to feed words into a subjects’ skull.

I have used many tactics and resources over the past years to try to block it or thwart it and today I can say authoritatively (based on my own personal experience) that I have at various times, successfully blocked it or distorted it via the use of neo-dymium magnets, stupidly (in retrospect) placing paper towel in my ears; by wearing ear plugs for the 1st 3 years non-stop & for at least the last 4 years or so, wearing music-filled headphones at night (even while sleeping) that effectively, block out 99.9% of voice to ‘ear’. It can not, in my opinion and based on my own personal observations; by pass your ears and feed words/phrases directly into your skull. That is patently false and probably deliberate dis-info. Or wishful thinking.

What I experience now primarily is one to 3 word oft-repeated phrases through out the day, with MOST of it being blocked out. I believe the phrases I do hear utilize memory and are not directly being fed via V2k. Out of a 24 hour day, the externally fed chatter, probably gets thru long enough to amount to 2 minutes out of the whole day, max on most days; and on those days that I laughingly call the 1st of the month days when I imagine, that whatever criminals and proxies have to justify why they are continuing to get government funding so they have to provide proof that this ‘technology’ does indeed have an effect on subjects like me–this is when activity upticks, but even perhaps gets thru 20-30 minutes in a day. It’s never more than that and certainly not 24 hours like it was when I first became aware of it in 2010 and hadn’t tried any defenses against it. Or maybe b/c that was ground zero and the ‘entrainment’ period.

At this point, I think they just keep it running b/c they can and figure that most TIs will adapt to it. I personally think that as a fairly sane and functioning person, that though this was in the beginning, troubling and bizarre to say the least; they NEVER could get me to buy into the lie that I was going crazy or that what I was hearing was organic or a symptom of mental illness. I instinctively KNEW that what i was hearing was coming from  an external source. I didn’t know the HOW, but i damn sure knew it wasn’t psychologically-based. Not on my part anyway. It goes without saying, that anyone involved in this kind of ‘research’, is most certainly more psychologically crippled than ANY Targeted Individual could ever be.

Again, probably over 99% doesn’t even make it to my consciousness. Even just holding my tongue in a certain way blocks out the words, which I believe are nothing but the bottom feeders’ attempts at artificial intelligence. And attempting is all the US government could muster in my estimation b/c they certainly haven’t succeeded. As I mentioned above, I have been clearly implanted. There are active movements in my gut area that definitely were not discernible or apparent before 2011. I also believe it’s possible that’s whatever ‘it’ is is also causing a possible obstruction of my bowels. What I’ve also come to discover is that over 60% of our immune system and a lot of our neural/metabolic functions are located in the ‘gut’ area. So I believe whatever these freaks are ‘researching’; they deliberately chose that area to target for implantation.

And I would welcome ANY legit medical practitioner to examine me to corroborate or to dismiss my claims. Whatever was implanted in me, it was obviously released or activated here once I moved back into my own apartment in San Diego in February 2011. If I could describe the experience, because it was very vivid; is to describe it as feeling as if I was in the sci-fi movie the Odyssey where a tiny flying object manned by a ‘scientist’ actually ventures inside the human body…I felt whatever was inside me unfolding and activating and unfurling it’s tentacles through out my body. It was strange and disconcerting but from that time to now–I also have had regular neurological disturbances, the feeling of being able to feel what i hear, the sensation of having an invisible force ‘pushing my body or rocking me’..

I’ve also experienced the noticeable ‘stalking’ of local San Diego police cars since I’ve been here & I believe that’s because whatever was implanted also acts as a GPS-like tracking device–as soon as I leave my house, cop cars drive past like clockwork and helicopters seemingly come out of nowhere; what’s really curious is the aerial stalking of what appears to be black & white helicopters. I haven’t yet figured out if they are actual helicopters with cloaking abilities or just holograms, as I’ve never once been able to capture them on camera; though I’ve tried many times–and for those who may think, well hell, you’re probably imagining them..believe me..I’ve taken camera pics of airplanes flying above me at around the same time as the phantom helicopters..and the airplanes show up in pics, no matter how tiny, they are visible but I have yet to EVER capture the helicopters, so if I’m imagining one, why wouldn’t I be imagining both?..the cops have at times cut me off and sneered at me while walking down the street; they have followed me in caravans while waiting for buses; they have shown up at my place of work and sat and just watched me; and NOTHING like this ever happened before my targeting was revealed back in 2010, so I’d be willing to bet that these pigs are being paid by the feds a lil’ extra to stalk targets like me. Primarily what I get followed by is black & white suvs that I’m not sure are either highway patrol or border control or maybe just feds posing as these agencies–they always ‘mysteriously’ show up whenever I’m out and about, usually, driven by some military buzz cut latino or white male–interesting that they don’t seem to entrust this low-level shill duty to a black person…wonder why? But here are some of the recent license plate #’s I’ve been stalked by in 2016: CA 1314887, 1445060, 1379221, 1417543 & 1417454…it’s usually the prefix 131 or 141, I don’t know what precinct those are from…but obviously, these shills aren’t trusted to do anything more important than stalking me while I’m out and about…pitiful, ain’t it? Also keep in mind that San Diego is a military town and I am a military veteran so I also believe that the military is deeply involved in my targeting and harassing too and in addition to the SD police cars/SUVS that are always ‘mysteriously’ showing up whenever/where ever I am in the city; so too are the b&w helicopters that primarily come flying overhead at night from the same direction as the Miramar military air base that lies off I-15 just north of where I live.

And you can be sure if I was some dangerous & wanted criminal, they would have arrested me LONG ago..from all appearances, they are afraid to even approach, let alone, arrest me. The funny thing is they NEVER really say anything overtly that would give them away. I have even brazenly jay walked in front of them just to see what they would do.. and they just drive around me and always try to appear overly ‘nice’…I’m assuming the Feds have told them to stand down. Stalk but don’t engage. I’ve read other TIs relay the same type of experiences with cops so I would be willing to bet that local cops are definitely involved & paid for their involvement in the ongoing harassment of Targets. But I definitely don’t fear them. It’s obvious they are just some more random low level shills who are simply doing what their masters tell them to do.

I’m sure they are enjoying their little kickbacks and think they are really doing something. But again, the way they consistently scatter like roaches whenever I pull out my camera to film them or take pics, lets me know they are nothing but cowards at their core. As are their nazi bosses, whom I would also bet are making a bundle off of probably selling me and those like me..for ‘research purposes’.

Some of the other ‘odd’ occurrences that have happened while being a TI…last year my cable wires were DELIBERATELY cut outside at a locked cable company box once. Keep in mind I live in an apartment building but mine were the only ones cut. I’ve had continual DoS attacks on my computer and other obvious hacking of my personal email accounts. And I’d have to be pretty daft to believe that just any random street level criminal can orchestrate all of these things separately, let alone together. It’s just not believable. This is undoubtedly being orchestrated and funded by the US government or proxies and contractors working on their other words— the usual suspects who have a long, documented history of this i.e. the FBI, CIA, DoD & probably the military since San Diego is a military town and I am a veteran. There is NO doubt in my mind about this. NONE. Nobody else has the resources, the documented history of this nor the psychosis and inclination.

I also have a theory that since so many Targeted Individuals end up financially destitute once this phase of what I believe is more than likely life-long harassment begins, a lot of us end up having to rely on government assistance, which I believe is what they want–if you are reliant on them for housing or other assistance, it’s easier to track you and control you.

I also believe that the CIA owns a LOT of property and real estate in this country and abroad and so in all probability, many of these properties are then used for covert & illegal monitoring/harassment programs like this–I believe both the LA address on West Blvd & my current address in San Diego, are both owned by CIA front companies. And since it is well known that they are flush with almost unlimited cash since they are basically the largest illegal drug and arms dealer in the world–I’m sure buying up companies and property to facilitate black ops pogroms like those targeting me, wouldn’t be an obstacle. It’s probably standard fare.

As has been theorized by many other sites on this subject–there is probably equipment that needs to be used on TIs to keep us ‘entrained’–whether it’s electromagnetic pulsed equipment or other portable equipment, I believe those who run these black ops pogroms set up shills and contractors in adjacent apartments or properties that are CIA-owned. The current building I live in was bought by another owner only about a month after I moved in. Lending credence to my suspicions about there being some kind of equipment set up in adjacent apartments (or homes if TIs live in single family dwellings)…the local electric company, SDG&E, completely shut off power recently in my neighborhood from 10pm-6am, and usually at night, I deal with the usual neurological disturbances that many TIs describe: body shaking, feelings of having ‘something’ whispering in your ear or the sensation of having your genitals ‘tampered’ with; the implants I believe are in my body are also usually very active during this period and move around; up until maybe a year ago, every night pretty much I was invariably ‘awakened’ at 3 or 4 am; I also usually go from hot to cold all through the night like I’m on a timer. Again, none of this was the case before I moved back to San Diego from LA in 2010. So back to the normal bedtime disturbances I usually deal with it—well, as I said, SDG&E, had a scheduled power shut-0ff and ‘mysteriously’ none of the above disturbances happened. No rocking or shaking, or active implants moving around. Nada. At least not until the power came back on at a little before 6am the next morning. So this makes me believe my previous suspicions about the US government having set up whatever equipment they use for this kind of covert experimentation and harassment being set up in the apartment below me, or even in the building right next to me (as I mentioned, the building I’m in changed ownership about 6 months ago but the building next to me, which has a bedroom that sits right across from mine that used to have the light on all night, all the time which I always thought was strange, but anyway, that building is still owned by the old management company that sold my building to someone else.) Anyway, said all that to say: whatever equipment is being used to power this harassment with what I’m assuming is directed energy weapons, apparently needs a power source because it sure was not working during the power outage.

Besides the cut internet wires, the property management company employees has exhibited some pretty strange behavior over the years.  I also noticed that the apartment below me has had an almost constant revolving parade of tenants, though everyone is supposedly locked into yearly leases. And in an apartment building in the middle of a fairly large metropolitan city, I randomly ‘hear’ loud mooing sounds, along with stomping and loud bamming on walls. All ostensibly artificially created to make me believe that it’s pretty much a continuation of the same things I experienced in LA, EXCEPT now I realize they are all merely sound effects  so they have basically been rendered ineffective.  Irritating at best; but certainly nothing more.

Another oddity that I recently noticed: one evening while making a quick run to the gas station/convenience store that is less than 2 blocks from my apartment building (near I-15 freeway in San Diego); I just happened to look up at the night sky and noticed a cluster of what I initially thought were ‘stars’..but after continuing to look at them while I walked to and from my destination, it became obvious they were something else..although they did appear to be twinkling….but as I mentioned previously, there were only about six of them clustered together while the rest of the surrounding sky was pitch I’m no meteorologist but the first thing I thought was, why are they just in this area? Could these be Satellites? They also just happen to be directly north of the direction that I sleep each night. Don’t know if it’s related but as a TI, I’ve come to take nothing at face value because in my opinion the criminally insane US government shills who are targeting folk like me love to hide things in plain sight; knowing that most people are oblivious to what’s really going on. And I also remember what real starlit skies look like from my childhood days in Michigan and what I see in the skies overhead these days is not the same…so I noticed this cluster of ‘stars’ in passing that particular night and promptly forgot about it UNTIL a few nights later, when I happened to be about a mile or 2 west of my neighborhood about the same time of night, maybe 8 or 9pm, and was immediately struck by the fact that unlike the cluster of ‘stars’ that were clearly evident near my apartment–the sky above in this location, was instead, completely pitch black with nothing visible in the sky. Not one cloud or ‘star’. Nada.

As it stands today, 5 years into having my status as a US government involuntary guinea pig revealed to me in the most jarring way–with what is widely known as voice to skull–I now wholeheartedly believe that I, along with both my immediate and extended family–are multi-generational involuntary U.S. government experimentees. I believe elements of Mk-ULTRA & CoINTELPRO, at the very least, are being employed on most, if not all of us.  And based on what I know of my parent’s background, it’s also my belief that they both are unaware TIs. My mother’s family, in particular, has a seemingly reoccurring  incidents of motherless children being raised by grandparents that also shows up as well in my father’s family.  There is also a repeated occurrence of people disappearing from the family–meaning they just are never heard from again at some point. Like they fell off the face of the earth. My paternal grandfather, along with a maternal uncle, both shared this history. Repeating themes no longer translate to ‘coincidence’ anymore for me—-they now generally stand out as red flags for artificially created or manufactured circumstances. I also believe that while ‘they’ use extreme experimentation methods on TIs like me, there is also an attempt to ‘karmically balance’ out their crimes by affording amazing ‘opportunities’ to other family members. Of course, those family members are also guinea pigs and more than likely their future ‘demise or fall from grace’ will be just as carefully manipulated or planned by these nazis but more than likely, these other family members will remain oblivious as to why. I know..this sounds like a Hollywood  movie plot, doesn’t it? But as they say: Sometimes truth is stranger than fiction. I recall reading some time ago about the late author Ernest Hemingway’s complaints in the last years of his life of feeling like he was being ‘watched or monitored’ by unseen government forces and his family and friends basically dismissing his claims and writing him off as insane. Well, it turns out..years after his death and once his FBI file became public–Hemingway had been right all along. The FBI documents confirmed in black and white that they had been indeed monitoring him. So he wasn’t ‘paranoid’ after all. Another case like this that comes to mind is the case of the late San Jose Mercury News reporter, Gary Webb..who wrote the controversial investigative series about the CIA being involved in the introduction of crack-cocaine into the South Cenral LA area in the 80’s the precipitated the explosion in the drug epidemic and incarceration rates that are still affecting Black America today. Again…initially, there were virulent denials on the CIA’s part at the time but then, years after, as in the case of Hemingway, they basically admitted that Webb had been right.  So this is what I expect too once I’m dead and gone: to be totally vindicated on claims that today may seem ‘cuckoo’ or ridiculous to most upon hearing them; and though unsubstantiated they may be–again, as I will say time and time again through out this blog–the US government and in particular, the US ‘intelligence’ letter agencies–have a LONG and documented history of these kinds of sick, pscyho activities–in particular, when it comes to black people. Understand me, when I say to you that you cannot and should not judge THEIR mental health as if they were like you.  THEY are NOT. Hopefully. So.. I am also left to ponder why this targeting has been revealed to me, in particular? I’m sure most curious people reading this blog probably are also wondering. Obviously, I can only speculate..and as I do through out this blog but since I, of course, cannot say definitively I may as well give my opinion–I mean, why stop now? I believe that TIs like me are being used. Well, that’s apparent. But to what end? I believe there are those who work in these criminally organized networks that hide behind the title of ‘government’ who know that what they are engaging in is criminal and amoral and may even feel a bit of remorse or guilt for their participation (though apparently not enough to stop or publicly come forward). But instead of personally risking their livelihoods, pensions and possible lives by coming forward as whistle blowers–they prefer to use TIs like me. In effect, I am being used to reveal what these cowards don’t have the moral courage to. This is the kind of rank psychosis and sociopathy that your tax dollars fund. I actually think they believe they are balancing out their criminal deeds by USING innocent people to reveal what’s going on behind the scenes of US govt black ops pogroms. But my thinking is that the worm that they are using as bait is still a sentient creation that has a right to life and they have taken away any choice I or any other TI may have had in the matter. Nothing will absolve them of that crime. Nothing. They have committed a crime to report a crime. But I imagine they feel as I’ve read many of these sociopaths in government opine: The ends justifies the means.

It is also my belief, that multi-generational TIs are artificially paired with one another to then create successive generations of readily available ‘specimens’–in much the same way that lab rats are probably mated or black slaves were deliberately paired to create more slaves for their owners . With this country’s more than troubling racist history,  it really would not surprise me if this government experimentation was implemented because former slave owners wanted to find another profitable ‘use’ for their former property. Yes, I do believe those who think themselves ‘leaders’ are just that psychotic and depraved. The evidence is all around us.

And now when I contemplate some of the people who have come into my life, it would stand to reason that more than likely, they too, are probably also targeted individuals. Though perhaps, blissfully unaware. Not so ironically, most of them shared some kind of military connection; which as I mentioned before, seems to be another re-occurring theme with TIs.  And one, I believe, may have been chosen to be what I’ve heard referred to as a ‘handler’.  Fortunately, for me, she wasn’t a very effective one.

Another oddity that I’ve realized in hindsight–any persons that I worked with in a professional capacity or had any kind of friendships with in the past and lost contact with–I never seem to cross paths with these people later. Old friends from 20 years ago seem to have disappeared into thin air, with no trace. Which I find odd since we are living in the social media age and it seems everybody is on Facebook or Instagram. And although, I have lived in the same area for over 20 years now and have worked many jobs in the area–I have yet to ever run into publicly anyone whom I’ve worked with in the past. Ever. It’s like TIs are insulated in a tightly controlled environment where every interaction or relationship is deliberately manufactured or chosen for us.  Sounds like that movie starring Jim Carey–The Truman Show, doesn’t it? Could fact really be stranger than fiction?


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Do I Think I Was I Randomly Chosen As a T.I.?

NOTE: This is a work in progress and I will continue to add to it as time allows—until I believe it gives a fuller picture of what I believe is the genesis of my Targeting experience. I don’t claim to know it all or have any concrete proof–but then, that is the hallmark of all covert US government documented black ops pogroms–most victims are oblivious to their participation or involvement until years & decades later–if, ever. But as we have seen in the past, The Tuskegee Experiment, MK-ULTRA, CoINtelpro & Jonestown, Guyana, to name just a few of  nefarious, covert US government-funded operations, were not revealed to the general public until long after their supposed cessation. I emphasize ‘supposed’ because I don’t believe any of the aforementioned pogroms were actually completely halted–simply merged with or morphed into other programs; had names/acronyms changed & operations funneled to contractors. I would bet my life that each of these pogroms is still operating today in some form or another.

Do I believe I have been randomly chosen as a US Government/military involuntary human guinea pig? Absolutely NOT. It is my belief, that those of us who are being subjected to the Targeting phenomena; are anything but random. But I also believe that what our targeting experiences are intended to convey to the general public is, that ordinary ‘citizens’, at anytime, can be scooped up into the rubric of this post 9-11 Police State.In other words: our targeting experiences are meant to scare the shit out of the rest of the populace as a WARNING as to what could happen to you if you DARE get out of line. That’s the intent anyway, I believe.

I used to think along those lines too—especially after 2001 and what I saw as the uptick of draconian and gestapo-like US policies that seemed to me to be aimed , in particular, at people who shared my opinions & worldviews. Views that I realize a lot of US citizens would consider ‘radical’ or ‘extremist’. Of course, radical and extremist are relative terms. But let me clarify my particular worldviews: I’m more likely to fall on the political continuum of let’s say former congressional representatives Dr. Cynthia Mckinney and  Dennis Kucinich than I am a Barack Obama or Hitlery Clinton. I would say I’m waaaay left of center of the latter two, who in my opinion, are no different in deeds than George Bush or Dick Cheney. They are the flip side of the same tin coin.

Now I don’t want this to become a referendum on my political views because I believe they are in fact, irrelevant to my targeting; in as much, as they probably were developed as a RESULT of my targeting and not the cause of it. I’ll get into why I say that later.

So right now in 2015, I can say unequivocally that I believe people who share my views were made to be visible targets so that the public would then invariably believe that we had DONE OR SAID something to run afoul of the US government crime enforcement apparatus and thus would easily accept our reported harassment as ultimately OUR FAULT.

And I initially believed the same when I first became aware of my targeting in 2010, while living in LA. I had a cursory knowledge of the FBI’s CoINTELPRO and of course, having been in the military, the interrogation portion of my V2k, instinctively struck me as Military Psy Ops..and when I say ‘interrogation’ I mean, that i audially heard a voice of what sounded like a white male, asking me all kinds of questions about my beliefs, opinions, my sexuality, and even accusing me of being a pedophile and wanting to have sex with my adult son–yes, sick and depraved–and the entire time I’m being ‘grilled’–I never saw who was speaking to me. It was a literally a virtual interrogation.  But back to what I was thinking at that time–obviously I was in shock and confused as to what was happening; and I also was solely focused on recent history (9/11) and at the time thought that maybe this was the reason for my targeting and being singled out. But since then, I’ve started to remember strange occurrences in my childhood that I had forgotten about and I am now convinced that…

My targeting & harassment didn’t begin in 2010 or even in 2001, in the aftermath of the supposed ‘terrorist’ attack on NYC and the subsequent passage of the US Patriot Act–I believe my V2k & 24/7 monitoring & harassment, which was DELIBERATELY & pointedly revealed to me back in 2010;  is simply the CULMINATION of what is more than likely LIFE LONG targeting & covert, black ops experimentation by elements of the US Government ‘Intel’ Agencies and those operating in concert with them. In my opinion, this is just another phase of what is undoubtedly U.S. government-sponsored & funded, illegal and covert experimentation that probably began at birth–for me, I’m pretty sure of…but since it’s highly unlikely that the US government would spend time, energy and resources on the covert experimentation of a single person or even a single family–this is probably also true for MILLIONS of other TIs born in the US & abroad.

So what do I mean by that? It means, in my opinion, based on what I recall as ‘oddities’ from my childhood that never really made sense UNTIL now & other parallel experiences of other immediate family members; it leads me to emphatically believe that my whole immediate family, including my mother, sisters and son; to also be life long targeted individuals. How far back in my family this goes is the only question I have; but there is no doubt, in my mind, that this, like the infamous Tuskegee Experiment and the lesser publicized MK-ULTRA, is multi-generational, and ongoing.

So again, I don’t believe that TIs are being randomly singled out. I believe what TIs are experiencing is just another instance of what has been the long & documented US sponsored Nazi experimentation on black people, in particular, that has been going on since blacks were kidnapped and enslaved in this country. Yes, I believe in jumping into the deep end. No need to pussyfoot around. And this is not a revolutionary opinion, nor is this subject matter new. It’s been written about many times, in many quarters. In my opinion, one of the most impressive and exhaustive books on the topic is Harriet Washington’s, Medical Apartheid.

So why am I the only one in my family whom they chose to reveal this to? Because, trust me; I could have been kept in the dark probably til death and just like most, would have internalized the bad luck and seemingly bad choices I continually made. I could have continued to think that my life long insecurities and social phobias about life long medical ailments were ‘just life’. That my seemingly chosen social isolation and lack of intimacy was something that had solely been decided by me. And not CHOSEN for me. Why do I believe the US govt/military or elements of the US govt/military would waste vast resources and time on ordinary people like me? My gut feeling is simply as a ‘controlled sample’. I think they want to ostensibly ‘monitor’ how we would react in life and to then set up what many in my position have been set up for: prostitution or sex work or strategic placement in certain employment or job positions, i.e. entertainment, politics, military, law enforcement or public health.

I also believe that a lot of those who are targeted as children end up being used by organized pedophile rings specifically set up for use by US government officials, like those chronicled in the book, The Franklin Scandal; as well, as used as drug couriers or low level drug dealers or gang members; I also believe some end up being famous celebs whose names we know well; as well as those who become accused high profile lone wolf or lone ‘nut’ patsies in infamous crimes. There are many in history who fit this profile. I will name just the ones I can think of off the top of my head: Charles Manson, Lee Harvey Oswald, James Earl Ray, Ted Kaczynski, more popularly known as ‘the Unabomber’ & John Hinckley, just to name a few of the most infamous. I also believe the theory postulated best by late author Dave McGowan: that a lot of the most notorious US-born serial and spree murderers were also unaware government guinea pigs & Targeted Individuals. In a nutshell, this is a multi-generational US government-sponsored covert mind control pogrom that I believe uses psychological trauma to stunt or thwart the independent growth potential of TIs–then deliberately and in a calculated manner releases them out onto the population and later ostensibly swoops in to ‘save the day’. The Hegelian Doctrine at it’s most diabolical.

I believe from very early on, TIs are subjected to massive and varying amounts or combinations of psychological, sexual and sometimes physical trauma to ensure psychological trauma at varying levels of functionality. It could be trauma based on life long or sudden medical conditions or ailments; or perhaps trauma from sexual molestation/assault or perhaps a child will develop abandonment issues because of a physically absent parent or a physically present but emotionally distant parent or because of a drug-addicted parent. The possibilities are as endless as the human condition. I believe the ultimate aim of this insidious nazi pogrom is to produce emotionally and psychologically stunted humans who are easily led, manipulated and controlled. All the while this is done covertly so that individual TIs are not even aware that the manufactured trauma-based programming is going on. They invariably probably end up thinking they are just screw ups or that a life of poor decisions are their own ‘fault’.

I believe I was ‘flagged’ in life from the very beginning. Born in Lima, a small town in northwestern Ohio, my birth certificate curiously lists me and my parents as ‘white’. If you could see my parents and I, I’m sure you would wonder how in the hell that kind of ‘mistake’ took place?  We are all clearly black. Clearly.  There is actually an addendum to the original birth certificate with the corrected race changed to ‘black’–but again, you have to wonder how this happened in the first place? It’s not like I was born at the turn of the 20th century. It was 1967 but I didn’t discover this odd piece of personal history until decades later after I had to send off for my birth certificate as most of us invariably do for identification purposes. Imagine my surprise.

If they had of looked at either of my parents; it would have been obvious from the beginning. My mom used to say that she thought it was a ‘simple’ case of racist notions because my father’s profession was not one at that time usually held by blacks. But if that was a plausible explanation; why is it that whomever filled in this information not only made assumptions about my father’s race but then subsequently also had to make a conscious decision to change mine and my mother’s race to ostensibly ‘match’ his? I now tend to think that my flagging in the system had less to do with my dad’s vocation than something more sinister.

Paranoid or reaching? Maybe. But in the 40 years since, there have been a lot of ‘strange occurrences’ in my life that prior to 2010, I would have just chalked up to random or curious ‘oddities’. Hind sight is indeed 20/20. Now, I believe all are related to what I now know to be lifelong covert & illegal experimentation by the US government. The reason I believe this is true, particularly in my case, is because I recall one of the most memorable ‘oddities’ of my youth is dreaming regularly about becoming a prostitute. This has always struck me as strange and it never made any sense til my targeting was revealed to me.

Now this fact would be strange enough by itself but my younger sister also used to constantly ‘joke’ about robbing banks. I  always thought it extremely odd that a young girl would keep saying something that screwball. Even as a joke. This was probably in the 80’s. And though I never took my sister’s ‘joke’ seriously, again it always struck me as odd and stuck in my mind. Now, of course, I didn’t end up as a  prostitute nor did my sister end up ‘setting it off’ robbing banks, but you have to admit these incredibly odd memories are more than a little suspect; especially since we were never around any known criminals. And if someone was criminally-inclined, I certainly don’t recall anyone close to us verbalizing it so it wouldn’t have been anything I heard that would have given us ‘ideas’ so there really is no plausible explanation as to why we both had these odd child & teenage thoughts.

That is, until I started reading up on declassified US government/military mind control tactics used in pogroms like Mk-ULTRA and then additionally learning about standard cult programming methodologies–this info then put my reoccurring teenage dreams in context. I’ve also had the UFO-sighting experience that so many people through out the years have described–I was about 12 and spending the summer in Ohio at the time and remember waking up in the middle of the night and looking out of a bedroom window and believing what i could have sworn was a UFO; I ran outside in my pajamas and recall barely dodging an oncoming car driving down the street as i tried to view the object in the sky. Years later, I recall another dream I had while a college student, dabbling in poetry and dreaming one night about a clear vision of some unknown large ‘encyclopedic-looking’ book and feeling the urge to get up and write down what I ‘saw’ in my dream. As for dreaming about being a prostitute–I now believe these thoughts were ‘fed’ to me, in the same way that words & phrases are being externally fed to me now via what is largely known as V2k. I’m not sure about the UFO experience–I recall at the time, it being a real experience, but from the cursory reading I’ve done about UFO sightings and skeptics; it’s possible that what I recall was simply a dream. Not sure. And I honestly have no way of knowing definitively if V2k was used on ME & my family during my youth and young adulthood in the 70’s & 80’s, but I wouldn’t be surprised one bit if I was to find out it was. The public exposure of CoINTEPRO & Mk-ULTRA during the Frank Church Committee Hearings in 77 I believe, revealed what desperate lengths elements of the US government were willing to go to keep the general populace, and in particular, the black populace, in check. And so based on their own declassified documents–mind control was considered a legitimate objective.  Do I have proof that I was indeed a TI in my youth? Of course not..but my theory is just as plausible as any other. Especially since most of the nefarious & criminal US government activity referenced by Targeted Individuals like me, is based not on simple conjecture and fantasy;  but on declassified documents revealed by the US government itself.

I also notice that a LOT of Targeted IndividuaIs share a military connection. Several of my male family members were former military: both my father and my sister’s father were former military vets; as am I. I’m not sure if we are lured into the military where this military grade technology (specifically nano implants) is implanted somehow or if there is another reason; but I’ve read too many other TI testimonies from people who also share the military background for me to believe that this is coincidence or random. 30+ years ago, I would have thought you mad had you told me I would have even considered joining the Army.

I knew I wanted to be an artist from the age of 12 and was pretty much confident that I was going to college to major in art. I recall actually thinking as a teen that people joining the military were not very smart & believed that I would never be ‘desperate’ enough to choose that option. Yes, snob I was and obviously at that time, had no idea that I would soon join those ‘desperate’ ranks. Years later, a confluence of circumstances that in hindsight I don’t believe were random (as you can probably tell, I no longer believe in ‘coincidences’)–sent me into the US Army at the age of 17. And while I tested pretty high on the military standardized test ASFAB, I felt coerced by my then recruiter into choosing an administrative job, 71 Lima as my MOS (an acronym that stands for Military Occupational Specialty & as I write this I’m also noticing another ‘coincidence’–I enlisted at the age of 17 (reverse of 71) while living in Lima, Ohio. Funny I never noticed that before.)…Another flag?…

But I digress..anyway, I was basically corralled into choosing to be what I considered to be a glorified secretary, when that is the LAST job I would have normally been interested in; but in fairness I did join the Army under the ‘buddy system’ with my cousin and she had already chosen that MOS so maybe that was the reason for forcing me to choose that particular MOS. Today, I don’t recall if that was explained to me at the time, but that would make sense. An interesting side story to my military story: I really hadn’t had much of a relationship with my 1st cousin whom I ended up going into the military with under the buddy system prior to my senior year in school, since we were raised in different states and I really was never really close to my paternal side of the family; but the irony is that we both got out of the military earlier than our contracted exits (we both ended up pregnant) and since that time, over 30 years ago, we still haven’t had much of a relationship. Which I think is another hallmark of this programming–they want you to be as estranged from other family members as possible so that you cannot effectively ‘compare notes’. I am quite positive based on what I do know about my cousins’ life since the military, that she too, more likely than not, is also a TI.

But thinking about my state of mind at 17, though I wasn’t thrilled about the MOS I felt foisted on me; I recall being excited about being able to live outside the country and the prospect of travel. I was young, oblivious and certainly hadn’t developed any sort of political or worldview at that time.  In fact, my mother had to sign for me since I was a minor. She knew that I wasn’t in her words, ‘military material’ but I can be headstrong and felt at that time that the only way that I would be able to afford college, was to join the military and qualify for college money. At least at the time, that’s what I believed: that these were my own desires and thoughts.

I’m sure many, many young and poor and in particular, of color youth find themselves in the same position each year. I know I’m not alone on that. In retrospect though & practically speaking, I could have also just as easily enrolled in the local community college and I certainly would have qualified for federal grants to pay for school without ever having to enlist in the military. Millions of kids my age at that time also do this each year. And two of the most profound ironies of what I then thought was my own decision that the military was the only option: 1. My mother had herself been enrolled in community college during my childhood–using Pell Grants and so why she never brought this up to me as an alternative is more than a little curious & 2. The fact that after exiting the military, I ended up not even using the military GI bill option to pay for college which is the sole reason I supposedly opted to go into to the military in the 1st place. I ultimately ended up STILL relying on Pell Grants and unncessary student loans to pay for college in the end.

The reason? When I exited the army, I was a single parent and opted to cash out my contributions to the GI Bill (the military matched my contributions as I recall)..because frankly, I needed money. Short-sighted? On surface, yes. But again, I believe I was ‘guided’ towards that military decision. When I say this, people may think me delusional and reaching..but as a TI, who has been researching the capabilities of directed energy weapons and voice to ear and the subliminal mind control programming that has been researched and more than likely perfected by the US intel/military over perhaps almost a CENTURY of application–and again, keep in mind what I said about my dreams of becoming a prostitute as a teen–so yes, in my opinion, it is absolutely plausible that the decisions I made at the time were subliminally ‘fed’ to me. This is the ultimate objective of covert mind control, I would think: to have your ‘subject’ take subliminal cues or directives from you while being completely unaware these thoughts/desires are originating from another source. On a very practical level, subliminal marketing has proven that this can and is done daily with the general populace. So is it really such a giant leap to think that the US ‘intel’ agencies and the military have been putting their diabolical heads & virtually unlimited resources together to come up with a pogrom that is catered specifically to a person who is an unaware ‘controlled sample’ from birth to see how well targeted & specific subliminal programming works? Again, the evidence is provided by THEM. The CIA’s Mk-ULTRA proves that at the very least—organized & systemic pogrom attempts were made. Not just pondered or theorized about but MADE. And that is just one of the many black ops pogroms we know about. I’m sure there are multitudes more we have YET to discover.

So though I was distressed about the MOS and didn’t find out til years later, that the US Army actually has an MOS that was more in line with my interests: Graphic Arts, where I actually would have been trained to create military advertising; I did end up liking my eventual assignment with the US Army Criminal Investigation Department’s Lab (CID) in Frankfurt, Germany. As the name implies, they were responsible for investigating all crimes committed by military & non-military. I ended up working as an Evidence Custodian during what ended up being a short stint in the Army. I say curious because I had no prior interest in ‘law enforcement’ and what seemed ‘random’ at the time, is in retrospect anything but. I was in the military for less than 2 years; having become pregnant with my son, I opted for an early release. ( My enlistment release ended up being a few months short of that time which again, I believe, was planned, since this disqualified me for many military perks and benefits that would have been afforded me if I had of stayed in for a minimum of 2 years. I would see this ‘pattern’ played out in other ways later on, again & again, in other life/employment situations).


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